I'm from Glasgow/Scotland.
16 years old.
I’ve sat looking through tumblr, looking at the amount of people who simply don’t believe in themselves, don’t believe that they are beautiful, don’t believe that they are smart, don’t believe they are society’s definition of “pretty” or “beautiful”, don’t believe that they’re worth living, resulting in causing physical and emotional pain, leaving permanent scars.
If you ever doubted yourself, didn’t believe in yourself, don’t believe you’re beautiful, don’t believe your smart, don’t believe you’re society’s definition of “normal” or “beautiful” or even “thin”, worst of all, don’t believe you’re worth living.
Every single person should believe In themselves, everyone has potential, it’s just up to the person to achieve it. Everyone is beautiful, everyone. Everyone on this planet is equal, has equal rights etc, everyone is beautiful, and equal. We are not lower or higher than anyone else; we are all together on this planet. Everyone is intelligent, everyone is smart.
Now, this annoys me. Society. Society today is a right mess. It’s pathetic. Society has a “view” on everything. Society’s view of people is to be normal. But, what is normal? We cannot be normal, it’s not possible. To start off, specify what normal is. What is normal? We are all different, we are all born different, we live differently, we die different from everyone. There is never a “normal” group of society, we are born, and brought up differently, every one of us. Therefore everyone has a different opinion. If one person says you’re not of a certain type in society, another person will have a different view. Do not let yourself get down because of 1 person, or even 5 persons.
Everyone is beautiful, even if they have scars, or illnesses. EVERYONE is beautiful, even you reading this. We were born equal, we will die equal, and we live equal. Every single one of us is beautiful.
Even if you don’t feel it, you’re worth living. Everyone is worth living. Even if you’re lowest of the low, do not let go. You mean something to someone, you may not know or feel it, but everyone has a great meaning to someone. Everyone has a meaning to be alive, but if you don’t see it now, you will. I promise that there will be a light at the end of the ever-lasting black tunnel. Something or someone will come along and will catch you as you fall. It always gets better. It may take a while, but it DOES get better.
You may think it’s easy me saying this, but I once was caught in a deep, dark hole of depression and self-harming, and attempting suicide. I hated myself, and thought everyone around me hated me. Ever since I had started school, to the day I started to the day I finished, I was always called stupid, fat and ugly. I am showing the bullies they were wrong. I am not stupid, and never have been, and never will be. I am not completing my first year at college and have been accepted into next year. I may be “fat” or “ugly” or whatever. But I am happy to be me, I am happy to be myself. Yes, I have scars. Yes, I do have a few. But I’m not ashamed of them. I’m proud of them, I’m happy to have them. They symbolise every problem I have went through, and have battled through and came out the end. I have been clean for about 6 months now. I am proud of what I have achieved so far, and so should you. I have won the battle, but soon to win the war. I will do this, and so should you.
Every time you don’t cut, you’ve won a battle. The more battles you win, the easier it will be to win the war. You can do it. Everyone can do it. Others may need more help, but everyone, together, we can do it. We can do it together.
This didn’t sound anywhere near I wanted it to, I was just trying to say that everyone is beautiful, no matter what. But yeah.. Stay strong, and You mean something to someone. If you ever need a chat, can contact me through my profile, I’ll always be here for anyone who wants me to J
Answer:
You are infact very welcome :)
It’s so precious to those who find it. It makes everything better, absolutely everything. It’s worth so much to every individual. It’s worth so much to me. It’s what made me who I am today. Love has changed me for the better, I see the best in the most negative situations. I now see that I’m not worthless, I am worth something to people that are around me, etc.
I want to take some time just to give many thanks to the man in my life, Markos Marafelias is his name. The name that has changed me. He gets up every morning and texts me saying “Goodmorning, I love you Beautiful.” He also says that 12364674 more times every day. He lifts me up to where I belong. He caught me as I fell, and I can never thank him enough for giving me the time of day, and actually picking me up.
He made me feel like I am a someone, a someone who can impact people’s lives for the absolute best. No one has ever done that to me, I used to live life thinking that I’m worth nothing to nobody, and was literally drifting away, until the point I was actually thinking about taking my own life. He came into my life, and made me feel like a someone. Made me happy, and laugh until I cried. He made me feel attractive, which I have never felt ever in my life before, I got to admit scared the absolute shit out of me, haha. I had never received male attention of any sort before, until he came into my life.
I used to lay awake in bed for hours, alone and cold, just to imagine what it would be like to love and be loved. I was emotionally numb by this point and couldn’t care less about myself. I emotionally tortured myself, telling myself “You’re too ugly and stupid to get anyone who loves you for who you are„ you should just give up.” I tortured myself, I ate away at what self esteem I had left. I had been told that I was ugly, fat and stupid from my early school life, being made to feel worthless throughout my school life, which led me to start skipping school to stop me from being face to face to people who tell me how stupid, ugly, fat and useless I was. My grades got worse, and was put on a behavior card to stop skipping classes. All I wanted was to be loved. That’s all I wanted, and all i got was the complete opposite, I was taken for an absolute mug. I used to lay there, trying to imagine what it would be like to have a “Happy Family” and to be quite honest, I couldn’t even imagine that because of how low I felt. My response was “Why even try to think about having a happy family? It’s not like you’re going to be here much longer.” I tortured myself to the point, I sat and planned where, when, and how I would end my life.
A week before that day approached, I met this beautiful human being(Markos.) who immediately improved my life from the moment he stepped into my life on Thursday, 23rd of August around 8/9 in the evening. I knew from the moment he stepped into myself, he’d help me. And guess what? He done more than that. He erased all suicidal and self harming thoughts. None were left, nada. He taken them all and thrown them away. He helped me with my confidence and self esteem, I was literally on top of the World. The way he made me feel. Every time I heard him speak, or see his name appear, I would get sickening butterflies, like I still do.. they never leave.
He made me feel attractive, and special. He made me laugh to the point my stomach ached and I cried. He made me smile to the point I couldn’t smile anymore. He kissed all my physical scars, and erased all emotional scars I had left. He fixed me like I thought no one could. He made me the person I am now. He is the reason I am breathing, the reason why I am here writing this. The reason why I will live long enough to spend the rest of my life with this person, and have a beautiful, happy family with him.
Thank you Markos Marafelias, for giving me another chance at life. All I can say for now is Thank you. I will, no matter what, will show and prove to you how thankful I am for what you have done for me throughout our life together. Thank you for everything. You made me who I am today. You’re the reason I breathe. You’re the reason why I’m here, loving you.
Sagapou.
Ya’burnee.
(This post is for personal reasons.)
